A blog of an average girl just trying to keep her head up and help you keep yours up, too.


thinking about your future is the scariest thing because you can either do really bad, just okay, or extremely good and you never know what’s gonna happen to you. 

So I’m starting the Isagenix program this weekend.

So I signed up for Isagenix, which is basically a cleanse program which includes having a shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch, and one “clean” and lean meal at night. You can switch out a meal bar for each shake, or eat half a meal bar as a snack. I’ve been looking for something to give me structure so I don’t snack (since I know that’s a real issue for me) and this seems to be it. My uncle does it, and he’s lost a lot of weight and told me he feels better than he has in a very long time. I’m looking forward to doing it, even though it will definitely be difficult… I need this. I need a change. I’m tired of feeling shitty about myself because of my weight. I’m going to do updates, before/after and progress pics as we go and blog a bit about my experience.

(I’m still doing pure barre and absolutely loving it btw!)


losing everything but weight

 how my mother works
me: mom i got all A's
me: mom i cleaned the whole house
me: mom i don't do drugs and i'm not pregnant
mom: is this your cup on the table?
me: yes
mom: you never do anything right i do for you all day long and you do nothing for me but stress me out you are so out of control you are grounded if you think you had no life before you just wait i cant believe you treat your own mother this way get out of my sight


never, ever, tell me that “it doesn’t matter.”

because if it was enough to make you cry

if it hurt you that much

then it does matter

never think that you are insignifcant

or that your problems aren’t important

because you matter